I recently rediscovered the song Rise (feat. Jack & Jack) by Jonas Blue and it lit a fire in my soul.

Music will do that to you.

This song is an anthem for never growing up, and even though I’m unfortunately very much a grown up (there is no stopping it), I still connected with the feeling it provides. The rebellion. The perception. Doing it anyway.

I’ve been chewing on my purpose over the last year as a SAHM. I’ve thrived on productivity, challenging myself and honestly overcoming a lot over the last several years, some of which still haunts me and I’m healing from.

So I started a blog as a gift to myself for any downtime I stumbled upon, that was just for me, and even gave myself a niche to stay within, until I realized I’m not a business that I have to promote. I don’t travel for a living, although my husband does, I’ve never been one to wear his job on my sleeve. I’m so proud and thankful for what he does and his job gives me insight into travel that is unique, but I can’t share what I’m not experiencing. We love to travel as often as we can and I love to share those experiences to inspire others to do the same, but lately I live more in the coffee and concealer side of life than the travel side and I didn’t think anyone wanted to hear about that. So I haven’t written in almost two months.

I put MYSELF in a box and then felt trapped even though I was the one holding the key. It has taken many months and a little bit of therapy to start practicing sharing myself with the world again; not just the parts that I think you will approve of, but all of me. Not just online, but in the world. Slowly learning how to trust others, knowing that not everyone is holding a knife behind their back.

When you think about your purpose in this big whole world, it can be overwhelming, like watching a big wave that’s about to come crashing down on you, frozen in time. It feels so big that I can’t jump over it, so I have to swim through it. You have to take a deep breath, close your eyes and jump into it. So instead of worrying about whether or not I’m digestible enough for your taste, if what I want to say is too political, too sad or too real, I’m going to create anyway. Write anyway. I won’t stay in my lane, because as of today, there is no lane.

You’ll still find travel adventures that will hopefully inspire you to “take the trip”.

You’ll find me drinking (protein) coffee, reading, making sourdough, and sharing the life of a pilot wife (the ups, downs and turn arounds).

You’ll find me wearing concealer, sharing motherhood; the joys, the heartbreaks, the challenges, the exhaustion, the gratitude, and everything in-between.

You’ll find me working out, breaking down stigmas around mental health and how important these conversations are in motherhood.

You’ll find me writing a book, one I dreamed up and can’t stop thinking about.

Don’t allow past experiences to define your future ones. Create your own lane, be your whole self, and jump in, holding only your faith in what you want to do and the perseverance to do it.

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